Saturday would have been Mikail’s 5th Birthday! What does one do when their child who loved birthdays is celebrating his first birthday in heaven? We didn’t know. So we did a few things. Some turned out to be meaningful, but most didn’t. Most of it just hurt and was a ‘going through the motions’ type of day.

The most meaningful to me was the day after his birthday~Mother’s Day~when I finally had a few minutes to take a birthday card and write my boy a birthday letter. We received a beautiful carved wooden box at his celebration of life and each year I will add another card/letter I will write to him. Jason’s most meaningful moment was when he went out around midnight and went fishing by himself. It’s interesting that the most meaningful moments for us were moments spent alone in reflection. The other moments, although difficult, were important too and were little bits of celebrating our boy.